When I grow up...

The other day my mom said "Its quite chaotic in your uncle's place yesterday because of some third party issue." I didn't say anything since I don't believe that the uncle that I look up to can do such thing.

When i grow up, I wanted to marry a person just like my uncle. That was the dream when I was a lot younger, when he used to fetch me at school. I always respect him more than my dad, because I thought he was different.

Early this morning while having a cup of coffee, mom suddenly said "It was confirm yesterday that your uncle was having an affair with their family maid." I cannot utter a word for few minutes. I was disappointed. I can feel the betrayal. He's a well respected and religious man.  

"Ouch. And what happened?"
"Well, a group of policement went there because your aunt accuse him of adultery." she said while putting some cream on her coffee.
"Waaa... and his in prison right now?!"

"No, he begged her wife, so he wasn't sent to jail."

Ring.. Ring.. "Ma, your phone." I said. She pick it up "Hello? Yes? No... Really..Where is he right now? Really?" Then she laughed. "Later then.. Bye." The short conversation ended.

"That was your auntie." Mom said.
"What did she say?"
"Oh she said that your uncle won't stop hugging her. "
"Haha! Really? Sounds good then."
"He must have learn by now that even a very devoted and loving wife have her limits."

The last phrase struck me. That was the reason why I have witness a lot of broken marriage. I don't want to experience that, who wants to, right? I'm afraid that I might fall in love too much with my "future" husband that I will suffer too much. I could still remember how my auntie cried and ask me for some ways that she can show her feelings to my uncle and how she can understand him.

It's quite devastating how a person can devote her/his whole life to a person who can't do anything but to give you pain, yet that person is the only one in this planet who can make you happy.

You will do just everything so that, that person would know how much he/she means to you. You will overlook the mistakes. The mere presence of him/her is more than enough.

Even my uncle himself, can't believe that he have done such thing since he always have the integrity and the pride as a man. He is a good father, nevertheless.

When I grow up, I wanted to marry a person who would love me more than I will love him and who would only love me. Okay, of course our children too, but he will love me more haha. Guess there's a little change in my dreams.